Life is wonderful?

Being an adult is no longer an easy thing to handle. One needs to have more thoughts before any action is taken. One needs to be more considerable on every single incident that walks past one's life. One has to undergo the pain and misery along the path to success. Be it wanted or unwanted. I'm just an ordinary person, At times, I could be mentally distraught too. Being tough is never one of my possesions. If I have to shed my tears, I'll certainly do so without any feeling of guilt or shame. Controlled over by my emotions, I do not know how much longer I could withstand all those hardships. When it comes to an unbearable stage, I'm afraid I might not have the courage to face myself anymore. Life is just a game. It's a matter how you make it look and sound more wonderful. I'm a failure in creating wonders, as what I have been doing to myself. Wan2 stop lying to myself. If you don't want to go on with this, why not just quit the game? But, what would life be if the most important chapter has ended, by force perhaps? What is tomorrow? Do I have a say in my tomorrow? I'm scared to close my eyes, cause I wouldn't know what tomorrow would bring. However, I'm dreadful to close my eyes too, as it could be forever. How much longer can I still convince myself that life is miraculous? Life, in whatever means, still has to go on if one witnesses a new sunrise again. Where could I get a shed of light? It's still pitch dark over here, deep inside my heart.......